Thrilled

I try to pour these out
These feelings that I feel
but since I can't describe
these emotions that make me reel

In and through they fly
as I lay awake late at night
but gather all the same
feeling so insane

My stomach twists around
for me it's all from you
feelings.... I have many
and without you I feel so few

If windows reveal to you my soul
And our eyes wide open pealed
You'd find mine are broken
But I try harder and I deal

Since loving you is costly
When bottled up with time
Uneven words are finishing
this pointless poem that's lamely rhymed

Why I leave you
It's just a constant thought
You are something I've revealed
Is something I'e utterly and shamefully sought

My time and effort wan
though for you I shall remain
And all I can do is cry
Wondering who to blame

It is hard to describe
These socalled feelings that seem true
I feel as if I'm cursed
And I'll admit to feeling blue

I'll leave you with the knowledge
That I secretly love you still
Just do not for me to
Excuse these ways
I'll never be so thrilled.