Ready to Pretend

by Cara   Feb 18, 2009


I slipped up; I let my mind be open to feeling, making me blind
The memories ooze slowly back into my frail state of mind
I squeeze my eyes tightly shut, trying to block the crushing pain
Knowing all effort is pointless now, but I struggle on in vain

The tormenting mental images and the unforgettable screaming
Fill my disturbed head, my uncontrollable tears now streaming
I promised myself I would not remember this, I locked it away for good
Somehow it escaped, crippling me; I fall from where I once stood

I scramble around for an ounce of stability, finding nothing of the sort
But I let my guard down, making room for more hurt, sure to distort
I feel my heart crying out for help, that sharp pain in my chest
The memories let themselves into my head, an uninvited guest

'The past is the past' I tell myself, trying to regain my sanity
A deep breath in, I inhale staring at myself in the mirror vanity
Knowing the damage is done, unrepairable and unable to mend
So I push the pain to the back of my mind, ready to pretend.

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  • 15 years ago

    by Em

    I'm speechless, 5/5. Em x

  • 15 years ago

    by loving my kids tessa and savannah

    Good work

  • 15 years ago

    by Seronum

    Excellent read I love this poem, it has much emotion with great flow Very nice job Cara.

  • 15 years ago

    by Nee

    A very good write Cara..
    I'm truly impressed !

    "I feel my heart crying out for help, that sharp pain in my chest
    The memories let themselves into my head, an uninvited guest"

    I loved the broken image you portrayed here. and how you described pain as "sharp" and the uninvited guest. Very well done sweetheart.

    I loved the ending stanza the most..your use of words was pretty normal at some parts..but you didn't slip with any lines.
    I only have one criticism..some of the lines were too long..and I kinda lost the rhyme at some parts because of the length of the line.

    Other than that..your poem was great :]
    Write on !

  • 15 years ago

    by Sylvia

    There is not much to add to all the glowing comments on this. I think we all have some memory that causes this much pain and it is hard to smile, push the pain back and smile, ready to pretend we are okay. Excellent write. 5/5

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