You know when you've been hurt so much
and you're sick to the stomach,
and how you feel as though you just want to be alone,
but you also want someone to care,
but feel that no one does, because no one really understands what you're going through.
and it angers you when they say they empathize, but they DONT.
they dont know how much it hurts,
how worthless you feel,
because who wants to live in a world where it seems as though 50 percent of the people you let into your life is out to hurt you.
smash you to pieces.
leaving you with nothing but the empty remains of a heart touched by pure cruelty.
and you have to move on, mending not only your heart, but your spirit, your soul, your entire being.
you questioned everyone in your life, and try to place a reason as of why each of them should be there.
do they hurt you? or do they love you?
what do they mean to you, and what do they WANT from you?
i mean dont be so naive, EVERYONE wants SOMETHING from life.
and all you have is time to figure out what that is.
maybe not everyone is out to get you, but sometimes it feels as though its not worth taking the risk and giving your whole heart to someone.
not because you believe they dont deserve it, but because you dont believe that, one day, they won't break it.
