Im going crazy

Sometimes I feel I'm going crazy
no one believes it but they just stare or criticize me
Sometimes its unbearable its mind numbing
I lie to myself just to keep myself going

There is no issue that can't be solved, they say
well my issue is direction and yet I can't find the right way
I'm lost I'm scared I can't help but break down
I've fallen in a dark pit where sight is as dull as sound

My life is a city of chaos and a mission from hell
No one understands me I just got to accept I'm not well
I stand still but everything keeps moving
I keep quiet but I can't stop screaming within me

Why is this happening to me what have I done?
who have I hurt? and where are they from?
why am I rotting from the inside out
As my mentality going haywire and my sane gone a drought

Cut it out cut it out I've had enough im starting to melt
im burning im screaming im shouting silently for help
I swim inside a thick puddle of mudd
where with every attempt to escape i just keep losing blood.