Its not me anymore

Setting here all alone
tik tok the clock slows
we all know how it goes

tonight is different
i think i might just do it

one little squeeze from that trigger
then it all goes away
something is wrong with me
something i cant say

the voice in my head wont stop until its over with
forcefully i raise it
the fate of my life right in my hands

i could choose to stop if i wanted to
but its not me anymore controlling
its you too

so now are you happy what you made me do?