Oh, this is soooo good. I guess this is what most people experience-alike to the a repl "I guess what's best to do now is to just learn from my million mistakes".
The pain our partners cause upon us and the 'sorry' we keep hearing from them yet with no true reason or deep meaning behind it "An apology made a million times is worth nothing if you don't know what you are apologizing for".
Often, it can be our mistake too led from the burden they left us with "But I lost it all, because I was still too hard-headed" to loose someone so close to us.