I'm so confused right now;
I don't know what to feel.
Part of me wants to break down;
But the other wants to keep this charade going in my head.
I admit things started fast between us;
I let my hope get up too high.
Now i fear it's all going to happen again;
The lost of something I've wanted for so long.
I don't know where things went wrong or did they?
Did we have something special started?
So many questions yet we are the holders of the answers;
Please help me find the key to unlock what pains me.
My soul is hurting and I fear it will never heal;
Everything reminds me of how happy i was with you.
It saddens me every time someone speaks your name;
Just a lil reminder that we are no longer.
I hope the vision of me keeps you awake at night;
for it would ease my mind to know we're both lying awake.
I really wish i didn't feel this bit of anger;
But this situation we are facing brings it out.
I lie awake in my bed every night;
Knowing i must be up early the next day.
All i can do is think about you and i;
Uncertain of my emotions and wondering should i cry.
All i can do is use this pen and paper in front of me;
write down my thoughts and emotions.
In doing this i hope eases some of the pain;
For nothing else i have tried has worked.
