Memories...

Memories, they paralyze and leave me undecided,
Another show of love left me blinded.
Why did you crush me the way that you did?
What was the reason, tell me what was the need?

And I'm thinking back to all that we had,
Questions remain unanswered of why things went so bad.
I can't fight these feelings cos I'm still in love with you,
And I can't push myself back when I end up running back to you.

I keep telling myself that I can't take no more,
But I end up walking back, knocking on your door.
Why can't you see that I won't let it end?
I'm back against the wall with broken pieces trying to mend.

We've gone so far away,
Can't stop myself from begging you to stay.
Cos my heart won't listen to any reason,
It's searching back to that happy season.

Empty feelings are all you throw at me,
But I'm thinking that I still won't agree.
Cos I know that I'm nowhere close to being over you,
Even though it's pointless to sketch upon the pain you drew.

I know that I deserve so much better,
But you've caught me in your grip with every letter.
Every move forward only grasps me back in your memory,
Painted masterpiece of love draped around with agony.

I wanna go, let it be, just let it all end.
Cos you don't need me - don't even need a friend.
I try and move and turn my back,
Hoping things will fade as it all turns black.

But I still keep on twisting and turning,
Glorified days beckoned only to start burning.
So I ask myself what's the point of it all,
When you're the one reason for my fall.

I know that it still hurts like hell,
Burning corpses where hearts slowly fell.
Can't keep my head straight when every thought travels back to you,
You cast a spell in my life that turned everything brand new.

I just can't take this distance between us,
It's tearing me apart - I confess.
There's not much I can now do,
Cos you were the only world that I knew.

I can't stand to fight no more,
I'm tired of seeing myself back upon the floor.
Why do angels have to be mistreated?
Slashed across the face and left uncompleted.

Every tear falling slowly down my face,
Loneliness and pain are the only two things I wanna embrace.
Cos deep down inside my heart has just had enough,
Life gave me too many things to complain about but never made me tough.

Still don't even know why I wanna hold on,
Hoping deep down to see that same love you once shone.
But it's all lost, gone, went down the drain.
Insecurity and falseness put on a great strain.

Everyone saying I should walk away,
But they don't know these feelings that still stay.
Day and night I think of every conversation that passed through my eyes,
Those "I love you's" that weren't told just for lies.

Nobody can take seeing me with him,
Cos they all know what I'll end up being.
Another painting for all to see,
That he played the finest work of art - that's me.

But I can't take waking in the morning,
Pangs in my heart springing without warning.
I really thought that you were the one,
But you shot me down more painfully than with a gun.

And I can't take it anymore,
Just wanna shut myself and close the door.
Let empty feelings creep inside,
Turning me stone cold with all the tears cried.

No one needs to be by my side,
I'll walk alone - dead in this world to reside.
Cos I don't want to be the light in anyone's life,
Or the "angel" that unraveled wonders in their life.

I can't take this heart that you tore,
Left me sinking when I used to soar.
Gonna turn and hide or run away,
Cos there's no place now wherein I wanna stay....