I'm feeling a feeling I have never felt,
Troubled trying to explain it to myself,
Confused by the intensity I feel inside,
My cancer-crab instincts tell me to hide,
All my natural intuition tells me to run,
Because of how (so far) my life's un-spun,
The part however I can't seem to explain,
Is comfort within that's telling me to stay,
Long I've been mistreated by hurtful souls,
Rolling with the punches and taking blows,
My inlaying fears are defiantly still there,
Due to living through one life long scare,
Yet my inhabitances are starting to unfreeze,
Till I met you I thought these unreal dreams,
Peacefully wooed by lullabies of your touch,
Suddenly I'm becoming more capable of love,
Giving into feelings at first I didn't comprehend,
Now positive that it was my heart starting to mend,
Realizing that my new feeling was nothing to shun,
I just hadn't recognized that I had found the one.
Part Two: A Year Later
I'm feeling a feeling I have often felt,
Troubled trying to rationalize it to myself,
Scared by the forces I feel inside,
I thought I could take it all in stride,
But I'm coming to the decision that it's done,
Because of how (so far) the shows been run,
My perceptions of reason have all been slain,
And the voice within is now telling me to stray,
Persistently knowing neglect is taking its tolls,
My heart has now sunk down to my toes,
Continues doubt and fear is what I now bare,
The sad result of looking for a little care,
I thought you'd help me off my scraped knees,
But just as always it's never what it seems,
Already disabled and dependent on a crutch,
Now I realize you just gave me another shove,
Finally succumbing to what I can't defend,
I can no longer ignore all that you do to offend,
Realizing now that it's best for me to run,
I finally recognize you're not really the one.
