Flawless mizery

The world has crushed upon me
And I am guilty for everything
Guilty for letting go so easily
Of the needed and the beloved so truly

Misplaced judgments leading to false illusions
Dark cloud causing blindness and confusion
The right thing moved away from my mind
The mistakes are made;the broken can't be mend

What the worst kind of punishment
For a person that is willing for a self-destruction?
When the good things are dead and gone
On the hardest path I am all alone

Would my judge forgive and have mercy
When I am my own judge that wants to destroy me
Who would notice if I leave this cruel world?
Who would care for the lonely little girl?

I miss the simplicity I used to have
I miss the marvelous feeling of being loved
I miss the good times that once had been
Now all I have is this flawless misery