Confused In My Own Mind

I dont know what to say
My words dont come out right
My head just gets more blurry
I cant sleep at night

My own thoughts confuse me
Scare me sometimes too
I feel like i'm going crazy
And I really miss you

I toss and turn all night
With all this in my head
Replaying every moment
Hearing everything everyones said

I cant live with what i've done
I just cant take it anymore
I feel like im spinning in circles
Just to fall on my face onto the floor

I have nightmares all the time
My heads just not quite right
I wanna pull myself out
But i just cant see the light

I feel so weak
I feel so drained
I wash my face
Of tears that have stained
I feel like ive lost everything i've ever gained

I cant even write this
It just doesnt make any sence
My mind is going crazy
My thoughts are so intense

You know those times I got messed up
It showed my poor health
Because all I wanted for a moment
Was to get away from myself

I cant get ahold of my life
Im fighting a battle that no one knows about
I fill my own head with lies
I have all this self-doubt

I need to go away
Im sick and I dont know what else to do
But I feel I need to help myself
Before I can help and be right to you

Please dont leave me
I need you by my side
Everynight before I go to sleep
I think about you and cry

This stupid medication
It makes me sick everyday
Im depressed, not psycotic
I want it all to go away

I cant see my Dreams anymore
I cant see my goals
I cant see a future
My hearts filled with holes

I feel like im stuck
In a maze within my mind
Going around in circles
A way out I can not find

I fear all of my secrets
That I wouldnt tell a soul
They constantly haunt me
And make me less than whole

I'm sure you wont understand
Thats why I keep this to myself
But i dont know who else to go to
I cant take it i need help

Please dont walk away
I dont want to scare you
Please just hold my hand
And know how much i love you

I want to love you right
There's gotta be a better way
Just know that without you in my life
I wouldnt be here today

Please know, you are my life
I would die for you
Can we help eachother get throught this?
Please say you love me too.