Me or life?

I'm trapped
i can't escape
i look at myself
and i know it's to late

I can't cry
and I've lost my heart
life isn't the kind of game
you can just press restart

I'm scared of myself
for what i have become
no one can hurt me now
because I've turned numb

life threw me in a whole
covered me in dirt
it's like I'm the game
and to win i have to hurt

it wouldn't be so bad
if i had someone there
maybe then life's game
wouldn't be so unfair

no one can stay
they can't deal with me
jut because when they cry
i don't show any sympathy

I've been hurt to much
to show anyone trust
to show someone i care
so leave, if you must

I'm a hypocrite to myself
wanting everyone to go away
and then the next minute
wanting them to stay

my walls are made of bricks
so no one can get in
now I'm facing life alone
me or life, who's going to win?