Decisions of a lifetime

The start of something new
it's a scary thought for all
new people, new places
will I rise or fall?

it's hard to say goodbye
to the life I've known so long
it's hard to get pumped up
when I think my choice is wrong

I'm finding out quickly
the lies I have been told
and at this point in my life
I've never felt so cold

questions going through my head
with no answers there to follow
friends and family telling me they don't want me to go
makes me feel like I am hollow

I want to stay with them
but I also want a life
maybe I could have both
this decisions portraying a knife

it's cutting me to pieces
without me even knowing
if I keep this up
my feeling will be showing