Four years to the day since i said my goodbyes
with hundreds of others I sat with raw eyes
Now four years on the trend hasn't changed
Its still hard to to when its this way
You were the older brother I never had
my mentor my idle through my childhood
you taught me games and sports and life
and we both cause more trouble than was worth.
But your teenage years like your life was cut short
a year in hospital was still not enough
I held to the belief that you would be fine
you were strong willed and loved and a fighter at heart
But even after being given the "all clear"
after dispersement of worry and fear
it hit back somewhere new
and took your breath from you
I still to this day remember
seeing you for the last time
struggling to talk and still trying to be strong
trying to pretend that nothing was wrong
Falling to sleep in your mothers arms
the two alone like when you were born
I didn't visit as much as i should have
but you hated to see me when you were bad
all we ever did was play games and have fun
but lying in that bed you could have none
I will never forget the 17 years we shared
I will never forget the things we did
I will never forget who you were
I will never forget what you loved
I said my goodbyes on May 8th 2005
but one thing I never said
I love you cousin and we'll meet again.
