Love Killed Me

I wonder how many times
My heart must break till I learn
You aren't the one for me
And your love I cannot earn

My arms can barely move
They feel so stiff and numb
But I must keep writing
As a means to not succumb

These dark thoughts plague my mind
As they slowly creep toward my heart
Separating my love from my life
Ripping me right apart

I don't want to lose you baby
But it seems its not my choice
I want to call out to you
Yet it seems I've lost my voice

Oh how long has it been since I've cried
Such tears of sadness and disgrace
Wanting nothing more than to hold you
And kiss every inch of your face

Now I'm slipping away
Fading into the past
Hurry my love
I'm not sure how long I'll last

I'll try and wait for you
Despite this pain and sorrow
Never losing faith
Holding on to tomorrow

But tomorrow is just another day
Another day without you
I can't do this anymore
I don't want to!

But I promised that I'd wait
So here I am my dear
I hope you never feel alone
For I am always here

Still, hearing your voice feels me with remorse
A longing to hold your hand
Instead I hold my tongue
Not wanting to give away where I stand

But I'll help you through it all
Whatever comes your way
I don't judge angels
So I haven't much to say

Please bare with me dear girl
I'm trying so hard to be perfect
But it's a task I could not master
One you were always quick to correct

I wonder still
Would perfection save this "love"?
I think it would take much more
Perhaps a miracle from above

Would God help a couple
So tainted as you and I
Or would He smite it down in fire
To forever cripple this lie

I swear to you, however
That even God can not stop this
I'll love you till my dying breaths
Even if I fade into this abyss

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~To P.G.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~