What I almost did

by Maddy   Mar 10, 2009


What I almost did today,
Hurt me deep inside.
Looking for some kind of release,
From all these things I hide.

Fear, pain, anger, anxiety,
Are what consume my very soul.
Happiness, laughing, joy,
Are my mask of self control.

What I almost did today,
Was stupid and unnecessary,
But oh my God it felt so good,
Yet also very scary.

Just to slowly drag across my skin
But not quite breaking through,
Still just the thought intrigued me,
But was too fearful of what might ensue.

What I almost did today,
Is not something I am proud,
But what I actually did today,
Was try to shake off that overwhelming cloud.

I called my friend,
Who has been through this before,
She told me it's not worth it,
The scars that blade leaves,
Remind her everyday of her regrets.

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  • 15 years ago

    by Courageous Dreamer

    Yikes. I sure hope this isnt true cause you dont need to hurt yourself.. although sometimes emotions come too much for us to handle. A well written poem, your words just flow wonderfully. :]

    5/5.

  • 15 years ago

    by Faithless

    Well there is always one point of time in our life which we figure life would be better off if we were to end it but the reality is, it's not the best option one can take, it would only leaves us with regrets

    Fear, pain, anger, anxiety,
    Are what consume my very soul.
    Happiness, laughing, joy,
    Are my mask of self control.

    - I love the expression that you have shown here, showing happiness as a false facade of what the reality is.

    Excellent Job
    5/5

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