Thoughts

I keep it all inside of me
but through my scars it shows
no one knows
all this sadness I feel
I cut to numb the pain
these scars never seem to heal
when I feel too much
the cutting makes it go away
I don't know what to do
and I can't help what I feel
I just wish you were here
holding me like you'll never let go
the way you did before
I can't describe to you
how much you mean to me
you'll never know
but I just wish you could see
forget it though
because it'll never be
the way I wish it was