I think you should know

I think i should let you know
this cutting thing for me isn't a show
it is happening it is for real
its not just what i feel
before i said it just to have a rhyme
or to make the poem longer by adding another line
but this time its not fake
don't try and stop me its much to late
i wish you could see the damage Ive done
i still cant believe you won
that scar on my thigh you once saw
compare that to now and that ones nothing at all
I'm so serious about this i don't know if i can stop
cause I'm at the bottom no one cares while you remain at the top
you go and break her heart and then mine
and yet we both still love you so for you the sun will still shine
i love you with all my heart
and my world just falls apart
you think you got it bad you think you hurt
but you have no idea what its like to "eat dirt"
you scars are small
if there even is any at all
my thigh and arm are covered
and my dreams have been smothered
d*** i just wish you could see
all the marks you have put on me
there's nothing left to say
today was just another painful day
i just thought i should let you know
me cutting my self thing isn't a show