This isnt really a poem its just me trying to get things out of my head to me words cant deribe the pain.. So i've been dating this guy now soon to marry and he goes and tells his ex he is still in love with her and wants to be with her. He told her the baby we made was a accident and he knows just as well as me it wasn't. Now that she told me hes trying to make it all better and trying to make me feel loved by him but I really dont know if he means it. Its hard to explain this, but i want to still be with him but I dont want it to be a lie. If he really wants her as much as he says I want him to go and not only be with me because of our baby. He asks me why cant I watchs Porn well I give it up when ever he wants I dont think its needed but if he wants it so let it be. He says its because he was so use to doing it its like a with draw.. I find that BULL I think its because he's sick of my body. but thats just me.
