I find myself hurt
by the things I don't know
I give my love and get in return
not only love but the pain from the past
history comes back and is no longer history
I learn thing I don't want to know
I feel pain in my heart
I feel anger in my mind
how do I deal with such things
self inflicted pain?
giving pain to others?
bottle it up?
I do not know
but i try to survive the pain of it all
maybe it will someday be better
but for now I feel
the all to real pain
I endure for the sake of enduring
