Pick me up or throw me away

WHY!
why do i do this,
why do i do this to myself!

i stand here,
i stand here by you,
even when you reject me,
without knowing,
without knowing you do so,

i try,
i try to show you,
i try to show you my love,
but you just look upon me,
with annoyance and scorn,
we used to have something,
and be something,

but you just let go,
opened your hand,
and threw me down,
yet i still,
still love you,
WHY?! i do not know,
but every time i try,
but every time i try,
you change,
you become an instrument,
an instrument of HATE,

my mind,
and body,
are wearing thin,
i dont,
i dont know how much i can take,
any longer,

so i say,
choose,
please oh please choose,
pick me up,
or walk away,
just dont hold on,
if,
if you no longer want me,
let me go,
let me go so that i may,
yet know love again.