Numbness

Numbness is the feeling I get.
This I will not admit.

Keeping the pain to myself.
Knowing help will come from no one els.

Holding the tears,
Covering the fears.

Fake smiles create my mask.
No one notices, so no one asks.

Hurting to laugh because I know I'm a fraud.
Like and actor performing but ending with no applaud.

Loved nor hated.
Neither easy or complicated.

Nothing gets worse, unless you make it that way.
Hauting dreams at night, and suffering consequences each day.

The numbness keeps coming back,
Happiness one of the many things that lack.

Sadness is the least of my worries.
It seems my life is a never beginning story.

Difference between the truth and fiction is hard to figure out.
Especially things you never knew about.

Every single thing comes to an end,
This is no pretend.

Deal with it and go.
With any pace you need, fast or slow.

But the numbness is always gonna be there.
No matter when, no matter where.