Perfect disaster

I'm falling apart with every second
And still I prefer it this way
Because i would go to hell and back
If it meant that i could stay

Because a moment in this hell
Is equal to a thousand in this bliss
I'm about to suffer eternal strife
So please allow me another poisoned kiss

This was a train wreck from the start
But I couldn't watch you shed a single tear
Now years of agony have passed
And I don't know what I'm still doing here

Everything has gone so wrong
And yet the love i feel for you seem so right
I day dream about you all day
And I cry myself to sleep at night

I guess when it comes down to convoluted feelings
You could say i am the master
I found a hell in this heaven
Call it the perfect disaster

Written for a contest