Silent Suicide

I don't know what I want anymore,
But i can't stand to be in this place.
No longer will I have to live,
With a dream I can not chase.

A silent suicide,
Is exactly what i need,
Don't want no one stopping me,
From trying to succeed.

I don't want people worrying,
I don't want them to care,
I don't need people hassling me,
About things i don't want to hear.

I know that this may hurt them,
But i can not convince myself,
So please just leave me alone,
And look after yourself.

They may not want to hear it,
But no way is this their fault,
I just can not handle things,
Its like filling an open wound with salt.

The pain is too much to bare,
Nothing I can really explain,
I just don't want to be here,
I think I deserve all this pain.

Terrible thoughts run through my mind,
Like how to end my life,
Whenever i close my eyes,
I picture myself holding the knife.

Blood gushing out,
Of a wound cut too deep,
Writing a letter,
Of all the memories you'll keep.

Alone in my room,
Silent suicide nearly complete,
All I've got to do,
Is make sure it is discreet.

I'll write her that letter I promised,
With the memories we shared,
Telling her I'm sorry,
And she should never had cared.

After awhile, I try my very best,
Drinking alcohol and taking pills,
Reminding myself,
That over dosing kills.

Lying on the floor,
Of my little room,
Taking the last pills,
More alcohol i consume.

And I turn to my knife,
The only friend i trust,
Silent suicide,
Is the only thing we have ever discussed.

I'm sorry, I say to myself,
I don't believe that they truly care.
But no longer will they have to worry,
For I have finally run out of air.