Falling

I am left in my mistakes.
Can't get away from it even when I wake
I try to forget the past
But it will always last

I'm still falling into nothing
No lies/not bluffing
I have already fallen into everything
Now my funeral song no one sings.

I know when i finally hit the bottom
I will probably be caught in
The past again from my life
Which I know will throw me into agonizing strife

But for now I suffer pain
And shortly after loneliness came
Plus the sorrow
Which leaves me hollow

I don't know If I will live to hit bottom
I will die most likely before Autumn
And silently in the grave I will lay
Having nothing left to say

The depression I face
Always leaves me loosing the race
So the point of trying is useless
Lost in the dark mist

I will for now fall
And as you have already saw
Fall into pain and sorrow and even hate
For being forced to this fate

So forever in loneliness I stay
Until one of the suns ray
lifts me up from my painful crawling
Of landing from my lonely falling.