I can never change for an unknown reason.
Despite my endless efforts I remain the same.
I am broken without a doubt, I cannot deny it.
My wounds are deep and very much alive,
they scream out insecurities and rejection.
Only I hear them, only I see them,
and it is I that has to bare them.
I try to become a better person, to grow,
but my efforts are in vain for I don't seem to stop.
A vicious cycle, that's what it can be called.
I repeat my mistakes endlessly,
I cannot seem to learn how to fix them.
Why he still loves me is beyond my understanding;
after all the pain I have caused him,
despite the mess of a person that I have become,
he still pulls me close and whispers to me his love.
Why must it be this way? Why don't I give him what he deserves?
It seems I am all he wants, yet I see that he deserves more...
