Looking back into the past

I find my self looking back into the past..
looking back to that day
when i could have been yours to this day.
you wanted a family
you wanted it with me..
years later im sitting here..
i have a little girl all to my self..
you made a family you look like a perfect dad..
the dad i wish my little girl had..
our kids the same age
a couple weeks older mine is..
i laugh a little..
what does it mean..
single mom strugling woundering if it would have been the same..
as i feel i want to cry
i come back to reality as i hear my daughter starting to cry
there goes my thoughts. shes hungry now
dont get my wrong.. i wouldnt change her for the world..
just cought up in the thoughts of my past