Everyday I ask myself...

Everyday I ask myself the same questions,
Continually throughout the day I search for those answers.
Answers to that pain that you spoke about.
What pain were you talking about that made you break my heart?

I see myself now and I look back at who I was,
I've changed so much I don't even recognize who I am.
For I hate and loathe all that I see,
I live and breathe pain as true as can be.
There are no smiles gracing my face,
I lost every reason to live and my fun filled life I used to taste.

But I still can't find those answers that I seek,
I feel like a madman walking around,
Tossing and turning in my sleep.
Begging that someone would give me what I seek,
The peace that I need so that I can breathe.

But everyday I am graced with only silence,
An empty and lonely feeling that continues to reside.
Eyes welled with tears on the brink of falling through,
Do you know what you meant to me,
Do you know how much I worshiped you?

I placed my life and trust within the palm of your hand,
And though time has passed by I cannot for a moment forget for...
You're still in every memory,
In every whisper,
In every ocean wave,
In every petal of the flower,
In every blade of grass,
In every grain of sand,
In a heart now broken you still reside there.