I sit here on the lonely step at the bottom of the stairs.
my eyes closed, and all I could see was the smile on your face.
a tear dripped from my cheek and onto the cement floor.
will I ever see that smile again?
have I honestly lost it forever?
I whipped the tears off my cold cheeks, and brushed the thought aside.
I slowly came to my feet and walked to the mirror and starred at my dark watery eyes.
I was lost.
I was lost with myself for the first time in forever.
The sharp pain in my knee didnt take my eyes off of my reflection.
am I the girl I truely want to be?
I've made many mistakes that I cant take back.
But I know im not the girl that made them.
I starred at the deep tunnel that kept going forever in my eyes.
I found myself at the end.
A feeling came over me and knew I would not make the same mistakes ever again.
I watched as a tear rolled down my face and splattered on the floor.
My reflection was lost in the blurry water that coated my pupils.
I collapsed to the floor and layed there curled into a ball.
I know im not that girl.
I brought myself to my hands and knees and slowly rose to my feet.
My salty tears dried on my face and I quietly said to myself "Im not the girl you think I am, I am the girl I know to be."
