Fear and darkness inside collide like a wave
For the first time in my life I feel I am in a cave

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Yes, when we are wounded this deeply by a love gone wrong this is how it feels...wanting to hide from the world and feeling isolated from the rest of mankind.

Lost in my own thoughts hurt by my own
It was a mistake to let my feeling be shown

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No Moucha: it was not a mistake to let your feeling show. the outcome could have been very different. You are not to blame, you did all you could and who could blame you for following your heart?

I lost it, I am officially num, no more breath
Like a zombie living and not, just waiting for death

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Num should be numb.
I won't let you! Even if it means coming to Lebanon:)

Eyes of fear, with an empty heart and a tear
I shut my ears; the silent is too loud to hear

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Silence can overwhelm you when you are in emotional pain, yes..

No one care about I live or die anymore
So why I am still here and I am living for?

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For yourself, friends, family, your future wife, whom you WILL meet:)

I am going to stop fighting, I fought a lot today
I just want to flow so far, and just runaway

Star in the sky , take me away to your arms
You took me down by your light and your charms

Waiting the endless nights crying alone there
But I should know better, life is never fair

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Trust in our Lord and his wisdom, Moucha. You learn from all you encounter and one day, when she comes along, you will know the diffenrence between real love and a love that was not for you.

I love you, never forget this and will stand by you always and I know within my heart that one day you will find your princess to walk beside you:)

*hugs*

5/5 Ingrid

:( oh! CJ, such hurt and pain and regret hidden behind that poem...yes life is unfair...but dont get depressed...god is there to help us...you dont know maybe what you're going through is for your own best...someitmes w hate what happens to us but later w realise it was for our good...

hope you wont feel so for long :(
we're here for you...

wish you the best...hope tomorrow will be better...