Possessed with someone other than myself
not knowing who I really am.
Becoming someone I'd like to hate
through hurting you in so many ways.
My mind possessed with hate for you,
for our relationship that never grew.
For our feelings seemed unclear
while our love slowly disappeared.
Not knowing what I want or need
I chose to let my mind succeed.
Consumed with anger and despair
I made the biggest mistake EVER!
With your attempts to reunite
I ran to darkness further out,
not realizing how much I lost
when I told you to GET LOST.
Still unclear, my mind in a daze
I ran back to you for a final say.
For you were prepared for another go...
I once again turned you away.
Three months later, you have moved on
while I'm still stuck in the unknown.
My life degrading from bad to worst,
Still not knowing what it is that I WANT.
