It starts with a quiver and a chill, tension
Its authority soon takes its place
Confiscating my will and mind,
I fall from cloud nine to hells affliction,
I am overtaken.
Every second can feel like an eternity,
Memories flash in front of me
More vivid than any picture.
Smiles and laughter keep my heart in place,
Dare it not to wander down shadowy alleys,
It would be the very death of me.
Gasping for what air can be found
Barely enough to suffice my growing needs,
Feebly pushing through cracks
Searching longingly for ways out,
Halfhearted at best,
Leaving no stone unturned.
Everything slows down, turning back time.
Watching lovers spend nights alone
What ifs plaguing my mind incessantly.
I drift to a once foretold story
Of lovers laced with ecstasy,
Of a child running to graces arms,
And a lifetime never spent alone apart.
Disillusioned, I am awaken by reality,
Painting a picture over my diluted fantasy
My work of art covered in black,
Laying in my dismay I give in.
How am I supposed to win?
