Like a bullet shot from a sniper rifle
I get upset over the smallest trifle
I explode when you're finally in my sight
Because us apart just doesn't feel right
I grip the trigger of my existence
Trying to close the gap of our distance
Because as I do that a part of me flies
Into your sight and before your eyes
Some things I say that I do not mean
But the pain I've caused is not unseen
It kills me to know that I can make you cry
While I pierce your heart, it makes me die
To see how rotten I have finally become
To hurt you so bad and act like I'm numb
Numb to your emotions and numb to your pain
And now all of your joy I seem to drain
Feeding on people like Hannibal Lector
When all the while I want to be your protector
To be the person you come to each night
Eliminate all darkness and show you the light
Instead I have become your disease
Eating away with the simplest ease
At everything good that we once shared
I only do this because I'm scared
I fear for the loss of someone I love
Someone for some reason, I only write of
Be it good be it bad my feelings never change
But anger and sadness are the usual exchange
These things inside tell me whats true
And if things change in time, I will always pursue
To find us together as we were before
For you will always be, the one that I adore
How hard it is to think of the person you cherish
No longer be in your life, a part of you would perish
Because everything in you says shes the one
And all the mistakes youve made cant be undone
You brought life into my dreary world
You brought love in as the consciousness twirled
A brand new feeling of someone that cared
But many more memories that I wish we had shared
Its sickening to the stomach of any person
And it only makes the situation worsen
I just wish you could look into my heart
To see that you are where it starts
