Goodbye

Growing up i was raised in hell
Hated and despised by my own father himself
But still my heart was in the skies of heaven
Then eventually fell
Learned to live in a world where the demons dwell
Where the angels fall and mt wings stay broken
Welcome to my world where the motto is unspoken
I was surrounded by money but it never meant a thing
To everyone my father was superman
But to me he was just a human being
I was the only one who saw behind his brown eyes
Where all the Thoughts inside of him lie
Even his heart is just a disguise
My brother tried to relieve his pain thought the alcohol had a way to take the thoughts away
Became attached and began to break lose
I finally realized no matter how many battles you win you always end up to lose
My was was on cruise control then i had to control the cruise
My sis finally moved out of the house but couldn't break free from her fathers clouds
My mom finally said its enough I'm no longer the spouse
Began to do her own thing and came home late
Slowly this family Begin to lose faith
For so long we kept calling out to God Then took our fingers off of the dual
In the end my mom was the only one who went back to Christ after a while
The only one who went the extra mile
After all of the years of my father doing wrong
I got used to his looking down and put downs for so long
The scars he committed to will eventually fade
But the hate we built in our hearts will never go away
Because his priority was always getting laid
Well forget him because in the end he's the one who;ll be left with nothing
Because you'll never get far by lusting
It'll take him time to see the difference between lust and love
But by then we'll all be gone
But one thing he'll never do is admit he was wrong
It'll all come back when he dies alone
By then we'll all be grown and not even care about the past
Because he was part of it
Me I'm hanging by a thread Kept my mouth shut for so long
Truth is id rather be alone instead
Then surrounded by people who caused my heart and soul to die
This is dedicated to the father i once knew
This is my final goodbye to you