I'm back at where I began
Yes, back at the very start
I'm back to where I don't even care
Not even about my heart
I was crazy to do this to myself again
And think that things could work out between you and me
But instead of being happy and filled with joy
I'm filled with nothing but misery
The tears are beginning to fall again
Slowly but surely down my face
And I can't wipe them away before they fall again
Because they come at a steady pace
He says he doesn't like it when I cry
Yet it's his fault that I do
I just can't seem to make it make sense
I'm not sure that I want to
I hate the fact that I love him
I wish I could just let go now
But something in me says just hold on
And besides that I just can't figure out how
All I ever wanted was to be happy
But now that seems hard to do
I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore
How am I supposed to feel about you?
This can't be good, the way I feel
But just how do I make it stop?
How do I get back in control of things?
How do I get back on top?
The answers remain unknown
Or at least I can't figure them out yet
I've finally decided to let go
But that doesn't mean I have no regrets
