Way worth the torture

I used to close my eyes
and imagine you weren't there

if i pictured you
i would bite my tongue

cause blood in my mouth
was better than the pain
in seeing you

i would also imagine
you far away

cause knowing your close
may tempt me way to much

i sometimes would swallow my breath
to keep my mouth shut
because i wasn't allowed to talk

i wouldn't dare say the truth
cause it would hurt more then lying

i never knew anything about love
maybe cause i never wanted to care

most of the time i would sit and
wonder why i would torture myself to much

and when i couldn't think of anything
i stopped thinking
cause i knew exactly why