Feelings...wanting it all to end...

Sometimes I wonder...what did I do to deserve this...
heartbreak after heartbreak...
I wonder when is it going to end...

I'm missing the guy I thought you were,
not knowing what I was getting myself in to,
I gave you my heart...
but you crushed it...
you say you didn't mean to, but you keep on doing it...
girl after girl..
when is it going to end?

I'm trying to move on,
but my heart is shattered...
how does one love again if your heart is in pieces?

I feel that I need to get away..
to shut you out of my life.

but the slightest memory triggers it all...
and I have to start all over again...
the hurt, the tears, depression, insomnia, hatred...
keeping myself secluded from all types of happiness...

but right now...its difficult to think..
to endure...
I want it to end...