Will this be

Excitement for more than one day,
For more than one thing,
Really doesn't seem like me.

At same time I'm so exhausted,
But i battle on will not surrender,
For that's not who i am.

Fear continues to run through me,
No longer shall it get the best of me,
For i am stronger than fear.

Pain throughout mental and physical,
Drags me down hurts so bad,
But now i shall use it to make me stronger.

Social outings usually scare me,
Now they will no longer,
Nothing shall beat me.

Becoming more relaxed and carefree,
For to live life you have to put yourself out there,
Can i continue do this or will this all soon fade away.