This poem may not always rhyme
But it seems as though I have some time
To write these words that show how I feel
How Ive behaved and what is truly real
Lately, Ive been realizing things that aren't me at all
I felt as if I finally rose, when actually I was just about to fall
I talked a lot of stuff, what I wanted people to do
When I should've showed my love and respect to the only person thats true
The person that I care about with all my love and soul
No, instead I walked all over him like he was a pile of hot coal
I didn't show compassion and I didn't show I cared
I didn't show our meaning of why we were ever paired
There was a leash I was holding, gripping oh so tight
To the men I thought I needed to go on with my life
I thought I needed options without the ties and bonds
Well someone broke that leash, and pushed me in a pond
A pond that represents meaning, truth, and life
He led me to a path that avoided all the pain and strife
I realized I was clinging to people who really cared
I was being selfish & conceited, and I didn't want them shared
I avoided my own feelings, and the long awaited decision
I acted as if it was as complicated as calculus, but it was just as easy as long division
I complicated things and stressed myself out
I gave other people trouble, and another person doubt
Well I'm here to say no more
What Ive said in this poem does not come from my core
Inside me is a person that is respectful, fun loving, and kind
Someone who is compassionate, and that is oh so rare to find
I know what Ive been saying has always been the same
But now and forever more I will no longer be to blame.
