The way I Feel about You

I looked at her and wonder again
What it would be like
If we could be together
Just the two of us forever

These thoughts are all useless
It won't ever happen again
She left me
Now pain loneliness grief and jealousy I see

I've been in pain for so long
I never thought loosing her would make me feel like this
I'm lost
Frozen in time in the impenetrable frost

The loneliness of being by myself
I wish I could embrace her in my arms
I suffer in solitude crying
Left by myself while I'm dying

I have been in grief
I can't think of anything glad
I want to kill my self because of this grief
You can find my tombstone saying Austin and yes I'm beneath

And lastly I feel jealousy
Suffering from anyone who talks or hangs around her
It makes me sad that I can't be with her
As my feelings and emotions for her continue to lure

All these emotions press upon me
I can't rent them no matter what I do
Just seeing her puts me to rest
But leaves me in an emotional mess

I go each day and week
I just stay to myself
As I slowly die in the loneliness inside of me
I finally die from all these feelings falling to my knee

I was useless from the beginning
I would have never won
I was lying to myself all along
I didn't know these emotions would turn out so wrong