Adios

Look into my eyes, and you will see no mistake
Look at my smile, and you won't know it's fake
Wash off my makeup and you will see scars of pain
Lift up my shirt and you will see more and the same

Now tell me that I'm still a picture of perfection
Now tell me that you still see a beautiful reflection
Tell me that you have a lot of things to deal with too
Tell me that you understand what I went through

You don't know how it feels to be alone at fourteen
To start everyday with the exact same routine;
Wake up on the street with no change of clothes
Don't tell me you know, because nobody knows

I don't care what you think; you may think it's a lie
But I don't want your sympathy, so don't even try
I'm not going to regret not forgetting about the past
Soon I'll be a different person and this pain won't last

Happiness is something that I will never pretend
But a smile on my face, is how my life will end
I don't want to keep on feeling sorry for myself
But running through my mind, there's nobody else

I won't kill myself just because this life isn't ideal
I won't kill myself over the pain and hurt that I feel
I won't kill myself just to have no pain and be free
I won't kill myself over what someone else did to me

But I will kill myself because it's useless to be here
I go to school to get harassed and to live in fear
Just so I can get an education to get a job that I hate
There might be something better, but I just can't wait

I had five thousand, and three hundred days to live
And in that time I've learned to forget and forgive
I have left my mark, a part of me, for someone else
But now I just have to do this one thing for myself

I'll take one step forward and I'll fall to my death
So here it goes, one last time for one last breath
I won't wait for something better than the rest
Because in my mind, I already had the best