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I'm sitting here staring at a blank page
Contemplating on the years of my age
Wondering where I am now, where do I go?
How to change this beat to the pleasure of my flow?
Right now I'm stuck with this decision, stuck with this answer
A conclusion that eats away at me like it's cancer

No disrespect to the ones with this infectious disease
But that's how I feel because I can't do what I please
What I want to do is something not right, something not just
At times I feel if I don't do something, I just might bust
I thought that it had fallen off of me like a small white feather
But instead it's blowing me away, like the thunderous weather
The cold water that I feel around me falling is not rain
It is more bitter and hard like the tears of confusion and pain

The world in my mind is stressed and spinning round and round
Trying to put up walls and barriers that nothing else could tare down
Forgive and forget, that is what I have been told
It has been passed down through the years, to the young from the old
But still it is there, and still I sit here and begin to think
I sit here and think for so long, a state of depression is where I sink
For the past few days, for some reason, I have been lost
It felt like no one will find me, no matter what the cost
For some reason I felt alone and by myself, which I was in a way
But I guess I'm going to just have to live with that, and go on with my day