Which way I should go..

Sitting in the darkness
No one around
Nowhere to go
The road is only leading down

I'm stuck in a crosswalk
Between family and self respect
My hearts telling me to stay
But my head saying go far far away

I don't know what to do
All I want to do is cry
I went through this once and survived
I guess I can do it again and get out of it alive

I'm not sure how
But I know I'm strong
My friends help somewhat
But I feel I have to do it alone

I know thats not safe
I need people who care
Who want me to fix things
And want me to get better

This anxiety sucks
Its killing my soul
Its so hard to decide
Which way I should go