I WASNT THERE

I dont want to sit around jump up everytime i hear a sound make happy pictures in my head, remember the things you said smile like nothings wrong but inside everythings gone. i just want to smile like ive never done before act stupaid and act silly run and bump in the door play games and jump as high as i can reach up to the sky and touch your hand.... but i CANT do anything but sit hear and dream if we got to the hospital earlier would you still be here with me if i pressured you to hold on a little longer would i of had the chance to say goodbye told you i loved you over agen just before you died BUT I DIDNT did i? i didnt hold your hand when you were in pain. cover yor head when it started to rain I WASNT THERE when you were ill i wasnt there when you where hurt i wasnt there when you needed me most I WASNT THERE I WASNT THERE I WASNT THERE......SORRY