Lets take a trip down memory lane;
Start at the beginning when we first met.
It seemed too easy and maybe too good to be true;
Did I get my hopes up for nothing?
All I've ever want was someone to care for;
And in return would care for me too.
Someone to share my day to day stories with;
Someone to hold me when I'm weak.
I can't express how my heart feels right now;
Confused and tired of life and wishing everything felt right.
I guess I'm just sad and want to be held;
Just fed up with being afraid and of all the pain.
I'm sorry if I misread all the signs;
I guess I left my heart run astray.
I don't know what you're thinking of anymore;
Has what we started been lost forever?
I can't fight this battle no longer;
You're going to have to decide.
I know you were hurt not so long ago;
But holding that against me is not fair.
I need you to trust me but I don't know;
You have put up a wall I can't climb.
Why must I be punished for her mistakes?
I know she hurt you but I need your trust.
You told me its time to move on;
And we would remain great friends.
I only agreed for one reason and that was FEAR;
I didn't want to chance never having contact with you.
There were so many things left unsaid;
Feelings that should have been shared on that evening drive.
My only regret is that I never spoke up that night;
And told you what I really felt and wanted.
I must live with these decisions I have made;
And swallow the guilt and pain that comes with it.
How I wish the memories would just leave;
'cause missing makes my heavy hearted.
I still catch myself thinking how things could have been;
FYI, just 'cause I let you go doesn't mean I have moved on.
I've decided to remain strong and stand on my own;
but no matter what there is a piece of me that wants you.
Still, some nights you have managed to enter my dreams;
I was back in your arms and you were kissing me softly.
It was like it used to be and nothing had changed;
I would feel warm and loved but wake up along and cold.
I miss how you would hold me in your arms;
And snuggle so close to me keeping me warm.
I missing so close I can hear your heart beat in your touch;
Wish I could experience this again, even just for a moment.
I've never come to you like this before;
What it took for me to come to you like this.
So please see beneath it all;
That its quite simple, I miss you.
