Why am i here

I hate to know
the fact that I'm here
the fact that I'm gone
the fact that I'm lost..
I'm standing alone
in this deadly storm
i want to feel dead
in this land of the living..
i wanna be free
of the pain that consumes me..
why am i stuck
in this twisted time-loop..
why cant i sleep like i used to
before all the feeling
before all the dreams..
why am i sleeping with insomnia
WHY WHY WHY!!!
why do i care..
why do i love
why do i try
WHY AM I HERE!!