*Dedication to my best friend Daniel Blake Alexander... Born May 5th 1986 Died June 02 2006*
*I wrote this poem when I lost my best friend in a car accident a few months ago. It was the hardest day of not only my life but many more, losing friends in such a tragedy not only opens your eyes but also makes you not only so upset and sad but very confused and frustrated!*
I never thought I would have a reason to question God and his plans
But this specific even I want Got to lead me through in holding me by the hand.
But since that Just cant happen
I'll ask him and hope he hears
And if he does
I want him to send me some answers
So I can wipe away my tears
What kind of plan is this?
Why does it have to be him?
At 14 years old I didn't want to have to say goodbye to my 20 year old friend
Why did it have to happen to such a great person?
When there are thousands upon thousands of people who dont deserve to live!
Why didn't you watch them close and push death away?
Why do you need them now?
Couldn't you have taken them a different day?
Will you help me over come this empty feeling that I have deep inside?
Cant you see the tears I'm crying?
Don't you understand my pain?
I have this empty feeling and it makes me go insane
Why didn't you give us a chance to say our last goodbyes?
Why'd you take him with out a warning?
Cant you hear all our cries?
I'd do anything to see his face
And to feel his warm touch
It's him I miss;; I miss him so very much
I shouldn't have to go threw this
I don't want to have to spend each day without him by my side!
What was your purpose for this?
What kind of reason do you have?
I wish you would make it clearer, so we'd all understand
Now when I visit I am the only one who talks
I know he sees me and don't want me to be sad
But its so hard, it just makes me so DAMN mad
I want to say I love you
And I want to hear it back
I wanted to say it to his face
I want to make sure he knows no one can replace
He wont be forgotten or the memories that took place
I want to tell him I miss him and I want to hear it back
God will you help me get threw this
For its strength that I lack
Let him be my angel that watches from above
Let him be my savior and you can help him cause
Your the one with all the answers and the big plans for life
Let him lead me in the direction;; the direction of my life
Let him be around me
Let him hear my words
Let him wait up there for me
For when my time comes
Let him be there waiting with a smile and a hug
I don't want a reason to be madd at you God
But its almost hard not to be
You need to answer my questions God;; I beg you and I plead
*I never really understood why people got so emotional when someone died.. Till Daniel left me, losing someone that close to you is such a tragedy.. Daniel is/was my best friend and now that he is gone, it gets harder as days go by. Being so used to hanging out everyday, doing stupid stuff, and going everywhere with one another then after one mistake, it all ends. It was a hard time for me and the other people that loved him.. He is a very missed man and will never be forgotten... I still lay up some nights and just cry my eyes out because he is gone... I love him and miss him more then anything... If you have someone close to you don't let them go.. hold on to them.. tell them as often as you can how much they mean to you and how much you love them! You never know what can happen tomorrow!*
