Kissing My Breath

***In the fictional POV of the boy that makes me feel weird!!***

You wouldn't understand
anything I say or do
because I don't feel alright
when I'm forced near you.

You cannot ever realize
the fear I go through
trying to laugh, crack a joke
feel your arm.

You run from me.
Turn away,
I could make you smile
and disappear.

Freeze into a mannequin,
empty, soul-less
without you the world collapses
into an ocean of blurry faces.

I try to make you smile,
but you run from me.
I head to my classes,
and you don't even look up.

Spend two hours every day
at your side, am ignored, mistreated,
and yet I feel good when I'm with you.
A drug, an intoxication, FREEZE

Into a mannequin as I walk away,
leaving my soul behind, hoping
you'll pick up the pieces I've left
and run forwards instead of back.

I pass room 27
my class
and melt into the walls.
Nobody finds the lost.