A little confused, a little out of the loop, a little unsure all of the sudden.
Would love to know what all the secrets are about, what the looks and the talking in code means, why your friends look at me like they want to tell me something I should know, but won't tell me.
I'm sorry if I did something that hurt you somehow, I'm sorry if there was something I could've done to fix this that I didn't do, I'm sorry that I fell for you more than I had originally planned.
A couple of months ago, I didn't know that you're favorite color was navy blue, or that you absolutely adore your nieces and nephews, or that you were so good at making yourself seem so different from almost every other guy I know.
But as funny as this sounds, or maybe a little crazy to some people, I wouldn't change it. Even though right now, a lot of it doesn't seem worth it if I don't get you, and I'm virtually nonexistent to you, it all got me through a really hard time.
Sometimes I wonder what everything would have been like if I had stayed at Foothill. Because most of me may hate the fact that I'm where I am, but because I left, I left him, and went to you.
