I walked forever's long, long road.
I stole the memories from my humble abode.
shaken by fear and weakened by love,
I took all the care that you had bestowed.
I had no vehicle, just the street.
nothing to move me but my own feet.
no inspiration of any kind,
only the thought to leave you behind.
It was enough to push me to do much better.
and forget all the things in those crumpled old letters.
the ones you sent, but I never replied.
Nothing to say but a whole lot to cry.
I could yell in your face and cry at your step.
I could think up a plan and fake my own death.
but nothing would kill the pain or memory of you.
unless you were to die along with me too.
I could write you letters that expressed all my anger.
I could write a story where I put you in danger.
and you died in the end and no one would know..
or even care cause that's how it goes.
I could force all my feelings and make you listen.
I could jump up and stare at you until I've made a decision.
Do I leave or wait, what do I do?
Cause there's nothing that will rid these feelings for you.
to love you was a waste, but I did anyways.
a love I'll regret for the rest of my days.
You thought I was strong, well I thought the same.
but I didn't expect to feel all this pain..
I want to release all the thoughts of us ,
the ones I kept cause I felt it a must.
like eventually you'd want them, to remember me by.
I guess I was wrong cause when you said it, you lied.
I could tear up the things that remind me of you.
I could run a sharp blade until it bleeds right through.
I could let the tears run and fall off my face.
I could say I'm okay, but that's not the case.
I could do many things, it might help me cope.
I could do many things, it might give me hope.
If I succeed in these things, don't judge me for any.
cause you're love was the only one I wanted by many.
